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in which I have no bloody clue what I am doing all of a sudden
Wednesday, August 18th, 2004 12:52 amahhh, god, aaaaahgahhhd.
And I was so happy all day today, too.
Now I'm at a loss all over again.
No, nothing really bad has happened. It's just that I'm left sitting here clutching my arms around myself [yes, this does make typing a bit difficult, thanks] due to the feeling that if I let go my insides may all come spilling out. Which is simply the way this set of emotions expresses itself physically with me. When what I want is to cling to someone else, but that's just not going to work, I have to cling to myself in order to hold on.
At least I got tonight's projects done first.
Maybe it's just the contrast with last night that is especially getting to me.
... Maybe all I really need is some sleep, since I got less than four hours last night, and things will look more manageable in the morning. They generally do.
And I was so happy all day today, too.
Now I'm at a loss all over again.
No, nothing really bad has happened. It's just that I'm left sitting here clutching my arms around myself [yes, this does make typing a bit difficult, thanks] due to the feeling that if I let go my insides may all come spilling out. Which is simply the way this set of emotions expresses itself physically with me. When what I want is to cling to someone else, but that's just not going to work, I have to cling to myself in order to hold on.
At least I got tonight's projects done first.
Maybe it's just the contrast with last night that is especially getting to me.
... Maybe all I really need is some sleep, since I got less than four hours last night, and things will look more manageable in the morning. They generally do.